How Silly Am I..

Sh3 is being very tir3d lat3ly...
The tired she's b3ing through was mentally..
Sh3 don't even know how could she b3 so tir3d..
Sh3 thought she could go HOM3 to have a r3st...
Sh3 thought sh3 can go TC 2moro morning with her buddies...
Just to meet them and hav3 some study together becaus3 th3y ar3 having 3xam...
She thought sh3 can have a talk with her mum that she miss3d badly...
She even wish to hug her mum for a moment...
Even if its just 5 minutes..
She hop3 to see th3 smil3 on her dad's face...
The face that will always fulfill what her daughter wished...
Today she went to Melaka Sentral alone with hope...
Th3 journey as usual about one hour...
And cam3 back with disappoinment...
She wasted 2 hours to go that stupid bus station...
On her grueling way in bus to Melaka Sentral..
What pop up in her mind was just her buddies and parents...
How bad she hope to just see them smile...
She hold her tears that roll in her eye for her grueling moment way back to her apartment...
In that bus she hated so much again...
She don't car3 how hot the weather how dirty is the bus how tired is she...
She still wanna go HOM3...
She don't dar3 to ask her friends to fetch...
3ven how much she hate to take the bus...
The next second after she put back her luggage in her room...
Her tears burst again like a baby...
She hate herself being so weak nowadays...
She herself being sad and emo recently...
She hate it...
After a talk on phone with her mum...
She feel a bit better...
Later her dad called her..
Even just a few words...
She knows that her dad is missing and worried about her...
And he was busy so he hang up...
He even think of coming all the way to Melaka just to fetch me back..
She don't want to trouble them...
So she just refused...
In her heart she really hope to go HOM3..
But she also scared that after going hom3...
She wont even want to come back and study...

-SMILE IS HER HOPE NOW-

-KoaLa =( -

Innocence By Avril Lavigne

Waking up I see that everything is ok
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's so beautiful it makes you want to cry

This innocence is brilliant, it makes you want to cry
This innocence is brilliance, please don't go away
Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

EmO..

She really miss tat specific someone...
Although how bad is him....
She hate to say tat she really miss him...
She hate herself for loving someone too much...
Till she lost herself...
Somehow nowadays are getting better though...
Just sometimes...
Sometimes...
Please don't blame her for being EMO...
She don't even realize how EMO can she be now...
Please don't blame her for loving someone so much...
That's not the ending she wanted...
That's not the fairy tale she expected...
She know there is no fairy tales in real life...
She just gave it a try...
And proven that fairy tales really doesn't exist in the real life..
Please don't blame for being sad all the time...
This is not what she wanted...
Please give her some time to treat her broken heart...
Give her some time to take a break...
Give her some chance to breath the fresh air...
She knows that life is not about him only...
She is trying to get up..
And be confident when she say she is alright...
Not the her who always faking herself telling people she is fine...
I hate to say...

-I REALLY MISS HIM-

-KoaLa Be Happy =) -

I Miss U...><

When U R Missing Somone,

U Will Jz Wanna Scream Out Loudie.

I MISS YOU

I MISS YOU

I MISS YOU

I MISS YOU

I MISS YOU

-I MISS EACH N EVERYONE OF THEM-

-KoaLa Miss You-

Weekend Shoots [DaY n NiT3]

ViEw Of
DaY n NitE
FrOm My BaLcOnY
DuRiNg
LaSt
BeAuTiFuL We3KeNdz..

[p/s Giv3 som3 comm3nt bout th3 pic..TQ]

-KoaLa-

Randoooom....^^

My New Laundry Basket....

Isn't Lady Buggy Cute..??

-KoaLa <3 Lady Buggy-

Consequences..

Now even the blue skies cant bring me happiness...
Wherever I go I jz dont want ppl to recognise me...
As if I did something really wrong...
Tat I dont wan ppl to knw me...

Ever since tat day...
Tat incidence...
Ppl saying many things bhind me..
Do u all really knw me..??
Y u all can jz simply spit out wat kind of gurl I am..??
Wat if I dunno u n i simply accuse u wat u r not...??
Do u all really think bout ppl's feeling..??
Even a gurl tat I alwiz take her as a best fren criticize me...
I feel so hurt...

Wat I did wrong...??
Since tat day...
U all never treat me as a fren...
I knw u all knw him more than me...
Understand him more than me...
Bt I tot I'm also one of ur fren..??
Izzit jz my thinking??
Izzit jz I'm the only treating u all as fren..??

I dont mind u all dont treat me as fren...
I never regret knwing u all....
Cuz everytime I feel sad after hang out with u all...
I feel happier...
Every sec every min I spend with u all...
Wat I remember was jz happy...
Joyful...
Comfortable...
Joking...
Mayb I'm the one all the while jz tot u all are my frenz...

Thx to Lydiana who alwiz trying to cheer me up...
She accompany me almost everytime when she is free...
<3 Darling...
Hehe...

-In any wan I hope u all alwiz happy-

-Jamie who wish forgiveness-

The Day I Bcome Bad Ppl...

Blue skies...
Since when I started to Lov3 the blue skies...
Izzit the day I came bck from my home twn...?
Since I came bck to Melaka...
I alwiz look to the sky when I walk out from my apartment to campus...
Cuz tat will make me happy make me feel closer to my home twn...

Cruel at the same time...
Since when I bcome cruel to ppl tat cared bout me...
Izzit the day I started to feel happy after all the scene of my broke up disappear..?
Izzit at the same time I started dont appreciate wat a guy tat care bout me did to me..?

On 13th Of Oct 2009...
I broke n hurt someone's heart badly...
He had been treating me gud ever since my broke up...
About 4 months till today..

Since the day my heart broke by my x...
I clearly knw how is it the feeling of pain in heart...
N now I'm doin the same thing as my x ; Tat is broke someone's heart...
If like tat wat is the thing tat differentiate me n my x...
Isnt it jz the same...?

I am really sorry tat I cant accept u...
I hope I wont lose u as my fren...
U had accompanied me till now..
Till I realize wat I want n found bck myself...
I knw I hurt u badly...
I'm not worth for u to be sad...
I'm sorry...

[P/s : Hope u will alwiz b happy as usual...=)]

-KoaLa aKa Jamie-

BaD LuCk...

Today go out YC with my buddies...
2.40 pm go n fetch Bearz from SABS gate...
Tat Bearz keep chat n chat with fren...
So wat did I do...
Horn her la..
XD
Wakaka...[evil]

Then reach Phin Ru..
No parking then jz park bside old twn lo..
Bt the prob is tat is not a proper parking lot...
B4 get dwn the car kena frightened by Anne...
LoLzz...
So jz get out from car n YC lo...

When YC almost ended Hippo oni join us..
B4 she came my left eye make me uncomfortable..
In chinese is "Yan Pi Tiao"
Bt then I dint bother much...

Then as I jz step out from tat YC place I saw the guy I knw from FS...
Scary la...
Tat day saw him at ECM...
Today saw him again...
Worse still when I walk to my car...
Kena saman somemore...
Bad luck...
Haiz...
Then go pay the saman money...
RM 20 fly away...
I jz use RM1.70 for YC...
Suddenly lost RM 20...
Heart pain...

Tat is for today...
Btw still happy can go YC with them...

-KoaLa-