我一直以为“爱情”可以很简单。
以为爱情就是可以单纯地彼此爱着对方，保护对方，呵护对方。
时间久了，就会发现现实生活中的爱情并没那么简单。
各个方面都需要去了解，去明白，去解决，去包容，去体谅。

爱情可以很现实。
爱情可以很脆弱。
爱情可以在三秒种的时间结束。
爱情可以彼此欺骗着对方，而谁也不知道何时是真何时是假。
爱情原本是这样的吗？

爱情需要很费时的去经营。
可是就可以在短短几秒钟结束。
残酷？同情？可怕？
爱情可以不用原因开始也可以不知道原因结束。

I'm afraid of seeing things too clearly..
I'm afraid of knowing too much..
I'm afraid of understanding too much..

I'm afraid of loosing him..
I'm afraid of getting hurt again without any reason..
At least not with the reason "I Don't Know"..

Once I got dump for no reason no respond..
I'm afraid..
Once I have third party with the reason "I can't stand you anymore"..
I'm afraid ever since everything happen..
Nobody will understand how I feel every night.. 
The feeling of don't dare to close my eyes and sleep well..

I hate to get dump after what I had given in..
I hate it when it is without any reason..
I hate it when I know something but I just can pretend..
I hate it when I don't know what I did wrong and deserve such punishments..
The more I know the scarier, evil this world to me..

What A Guy Couldn't See In A Girl

Boy : I broke up with her.


His Best Friend : What happened?


Boy : She’s just too much for me.


His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?


Boy : Well, for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..


His Best Friend : So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..


Boy : Oh.. Well..She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!


His Best Friend : So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..

Boy : But.. Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightly mean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!


His Best Friend : So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..

Boy : I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her.

His Best Friend : So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see..


Boy : Well, she..


His Best Friend : You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?


Boy : I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me?


His Best Friend : You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S what happened..

I'm back in my sweet hometown after 3 days 2 nights in Kukup and Muar.
Special thanks to dai lou Kinz.
Had a wonderful trip there.
No doubt that the seafood there are yummylicious.
Won't be describing with word due to laziness. *teehee*
Pictures describes everything, every emotions, every moments.

This picture will be perfect if the 2 guys below were in it. They are the photographer *applause*

Click on the picture to have a better view of it.

                                     
                                     

For this 2 pretty girls above, I adore them lots.

Lynn was the one always listen to me and be there for me. *not everytime*

Tiang Ning, like I say I woudn't know another girl like her in any corner on the Earth. She is a girl with a cute personality. She join us even she had transferred to INTI. However she is still the cutest girl ever.

Food!! The pictures show it all. YUMMYLICIOUS!!

I slept for almost 12 hours last night.
Now I should start doing something.

To do list:
Sleep and Wake early.
Jog every morning around my house.
Search for FYP stuff.
Eat and drink Well.

The feeling of packing is we are heading to somewhere we don't wanna be known.
To where?
Perhaps happiness is to where I intended.
It might also be not what we intended all this while.
It might just bring you into a nightmare.

-KoaLa-

The Band Perry - If I Die Young

This is how I feel now.
Wish to die so that some day someone will notice me.
Someone will at least care and think of me sometimes.
Think of what they did to me.
Perhaps lost of me wouldn't bring any huge effects.
At least some people will remember me forever.

Boys Like Girls - The Great Escape

This is how I feel now, Escape escape and escape from everything that I couldn't do anything about it.
I wanna go shopping, in the end being left out by them again.
I'm not blaming anyone, just blaming myself to not ask earlier.
How stupid!

Can you just go away?
What have you give me for the past 2 years?
Tired Tired Tired
From the beginning I give in all the support I can to you.
But what you give me?
You break down everytime I was there with you.
I break down, where the hell are you?
In your dream?
I had enough of you! I ain't gonna suffer myself and give in anymore!
I'm born by my mum to gain happiness!
Not torture by you! I've done more than enough for you!
You tired you get to sleep, I tired I still need to finish up my work my exams!
FML!
p/s: find someone else to torture find someone else to express the way you love find a girl that can bear with betrayal and get cheated infront of her face and eyes!

Its 3:50 a.m. I just bath and wash my hair under bloody cold water, I'm more unwilling to do so than you just not getting enough sleep!

Yeah! Done with my extremely stressful exam.
p/s: just me being too over stressful over one final paper.

Haha =]

One ends another starting. Hell Yea FYP. -.-

Yes, I wonder how they can be an obsess to a guy?

With fake of everything and they are perfect?

Yes, they are attractive and interesting.

Which girl don't want to be like them be dream of a guy?

I wonder every girl can bear with bf being obsess? or it just me.

If its just me. Then yea, I've got nothing to say anyway.

Seriously, trying to accept. Can I don't choose between accept and not accept?

As perfect as they can be, I feel irritated and annoyed for some reasons.

Not to say I'm anti-SNSD, just anti-being-obsessive!

*mind blown*

Good Morning Bloggie~
Rise and shine..
Today is the day, just another sem with one day of FINALS.
*who cares*
I'm pretty cares about each and every exams going on.
Unlike others, I'm labelled as the "STRESS GIRL".
I don't even know why, can't I born to be just having a stress face?
Anyway, I will be heading to my exam venue soon in the afternoon..

To be continue...

Stop Caring Stop Mind About Other Things.
*stupid me*
Focus On You Exam!

14 Hours to go... Please let it just pass like a blink of eye..
*sound ridiculous* *slap myself*

The situation has become tensed up again.
Totally having a tough time.
*last day to study*
I really don't wanna always be like this.
I doubt that we know what to do with us.
"Go with the flow" not gonna work.
At least now is not working.
Can't you see!
You know everything about yourself your stuff your life.
What about what I want, my life.
Isn't you are the one choose me in the beginning?
Isn't what we promised each other means something to you?
Do I mean something to you after 2 years.

Should I be proud to always be the longest gf? *what's the point*

Today is the day.
Supposed to be FYP title release day.
But, some people say it will postponed to tomorrow,
some people say it will be released later, some people say...
*sigh*
Now, I'm in campus already.
The thing is I don't know what to do. -.-


Yesterday night was terrible and scary.
Rain storm, strong wind and scary sounds.
Is as though the whole thing gonna be blown off.
>.< *shivering*

Good night dear bloggie =]
I guess you are the best listener ever.
At least I can find you whenever I want, wherever I want.
You'll never be too busy to listen to me! Unlike somebody!

Don't Stress Don't Stress!

smile .. don't you dare stress ..

Dinner is done.
Back to study.
Stay STRONG for 2 more days.
Then you'll be FINE.
Always try to SMILE.


To Do List During Holiday:
Shopping
Stay in Starbucks whole afternoon
Sleep well and early
Eat nice food
 =] to be continue.....

Tomorrow is the day. FYP title release..!!

Somehow I'm worry because I know where is my capability.

Oh boy, I've been keep talking to my dear blog who doesn't reply.

LOL.

Currently addicted to few song:
Taeyang - Wedding Dress
Taeyang ft G-Dragon - I Need A Girl
BigBang - Haru Haru

I could somehow feel the sadness and pain by just looking at the MV especially Wedding Dress. All these accompany me every second I'm studying.

Relationship relationship relationship..
I'm not gonna do anything about it anymore..
I've done what I can..
If I ever leave, it was just because we don't understand each other and didn't know how to appreciate each other.
This is how much I wanted to say, but its just couldn't come out from me..
This is what my heart shouted out loud that you'll never know..
I couldn't tell how much more I can bear, I know it won't be long..

I watched the video of Ella's wedding..
Awww, both of them are so cute and sweet..
Highly recommend their sweet and sexy dance during the dinner, you all should have a watch on it..

Wish that she could be happily ever after

We will never know our future.

We used to be happy, really do.

We used to trust each other.

We used to tell out everything.

We used to find each other at the very first moment.

Now, there is just something missing between us.

There's a puzzle missing.

The puzzle might be somewhere near; 

might be somewhere we would never find it.

If the puzzle missing too long, the picture of happiness will be gone forever.

Night.

To Him =)

Ice skating is fun, its not hard if you enjoy it.

I wish I was there to be with you to experience every of your first-time moment.

Its funny that I could imagine how dumb you are in skating. *not dumb literally*

It makes me happy how I could imagine you will always be trying to do something stupid to bring laughter to me.

;) *evil*

What Goes Around Comes Around

I miss everything we had, I miss your everything

I always thought you are the one for me, and now I still believes that you are the one for me

Although I'm not sure what are we now, I want you to be happy to have the life you wanted

I know you have never been uncontrolled by other people

And yes you have the right to be someone you want

I'll be right here supporting you

I didn't know how much I still can support as I can't even support myself anymore

I'm loosing myself and I miss my friends and family, I wish to have them with me now

I'm such stubborn that even I'm not that strong but I still want to be strong

I never intend to burden anyone all this while I never want my love ones to worry about me

Thanks to my friend who talk to me and bear with me all the time

I know they are worried about me and sorry for that

I promise I will be strong and be me again

I should be confident, strong, the one who always protect and cared about others more than myself.

I should be the one who comfort other people but not people comforting me