Currenlty..

• My Fri3nd & R3Lativ3---Ch3w LinG

I feel so worry bout her...
It's so UNFAIR...
Her father jz passed away 99 days ago...
Why GOD have to take her mum away also...
It's so UNFAIR...
She did nothing wrong in her life...
She don't deserve to get all this suffer...
-HOP3 SH3 CAN STAY STRONG-

• STPM

Today I sms to wish good luck to f3w fri3nds that I tak3 th3m as fri3nd...
But sadly what they r3ply m3 was "Who Are You"...
I hav3 to 3xplain on3 by on3 that I'm James's Ex...
WTH..
If I jz tell them my nam3..
I will 3nd up hav3 to explain one more tim3..
Cuz they will reply "who are you" again...
I don't want to liv3 under HIS nam3..!!
Why nobody can rememb3r my nam3.....
N3ver mind...
But I also got feelings wan you know...
Whatever...
GOOD LUCK STPMers..
-HOP3 YOU PPL CAN REMEMBER M3 FOR WHO I AM-

Sorry..

Nowadays she really dont know what exactly she's doing...
She feel so confusing sometime untill she will become very emo in a sudden...
She feel like she can just simply like a guy this minute and dont like him next minute...
Why and when she become so confusing...
She still remember the her she know always do whatever she like...
Always just do it when she had decided...
And she always can just decide by herself...
But why now everything she have to be worry before she make a decision...
She will concern about every single consequences...
Since yesterday till now she had an ache on the right side of her waist..
Its so freaking pain...
Even just now she went out she dont dare to tell that she feel very pain..

Sorry to all her friends that always stand by her side support her
Sorry to ppl she had hurt recently
Sorry to her parents that she made them worried about her so much...
-SORRY-

Mid-term is around the corner...
Pls concentrate KoaLa...
Dont think of relationships can anot..??
Where is the determination of yours..??
Dont be so lazy...
You are a KoaLa not PiG..!!

-KoaLa-

Its Not Worth It...

Its not worth to LOVE someone like ME...
Its not worth to WAIT someone like ME...
Its not worth to be UNHAPPY because of someone like ME...
Its not worth to WASTE your TEARS because of someone like ME...

Wake up...

You know that your condition you can find someone better than ME...
You realise that rite..??
You know deep down in your HEART...
You know that my condition does not allow to ME to LOVE u...
You should know that my condition don't allow me to give u HAPPINESS..
You know that if I accept u with my condition like this now, in the end u will SUFFER...

Please don't do stupid things because of ME...

I cant even control my feelings nowadays..
What am I good in is not other than just CRY...
I am good in SADNESS...
I am good in HURTING YOU...
I am good in MAKING PPL AROUND ME SAD...

I am USELESS....
I just can put my effort on how to make ppl around me HAPPY...
But I don't have the ability to make myself HAPPY...
I don't even know what is HAPPY...
Because I feel NOTHING...
I feel EMPTY...
Can say FEELINGLESS...

I feel GUILTY everytime after see-ing your facebook post...
More GUILTY as days pass...
Don't ever change the REAL you to the person I don't know..
I feel SAD everytime I realise I RUIN your life RUIN your personalities..
Making u LOST...

If u saw my post...do remember LOVING someone should be something HAPPY...
LOVING someone shouldn't be something suffer...
Whats the point...if u LOVE me but u are sad...
I really hope I can see SMILEY on your face..=)

-PLEASE..you know who I'm talking bout here-

-The girl who appreciate u very much-

If And Only If...

Monsoon season...
I Love It When it Rains...
I Love to be Under The Rain...

I Love the breeze from the Monsoon Season...

If from the start she din't step in ppl's life...
There may not be so much sadness or suffer...
If she refuse earlier...
Maybe ppl wont be this sad now...
If she knows what she want earlier...
Ppl won't the suffer this much now...
She hope to be alone...
She rather be alone...
Than to hurt ppl's feelings...
Than to bring sadness to ppl...
What if from the start she doesn't exist in this world...
Would it be better..??
What if she is not born in this world...
Will it reduce mayb not all bt part of all the disaster...
What if from the start everyone hate me...
Would everyone be more happy..??
If the existence of her cause so much trouble to ppl...
She rather she disappear from now..
This moment..
From here...
From this world...

-Forever-

It means nothing to her if ppl around her doesn't feel happy..
It means nothing to her if her parent do not have the smile on their face...
It means nothing to her if every friend of her having unsolved problems..

She hope...
She really hope that ppl around her is happy...
She really hope to have a look at he smile of her parent's face...
She wants to see smile on each face of her friends...
She really hopes...

-KoaLa-